Thursday, June 19th, 2008
How do I know?
'Cause the gauntlet was throw down to show up. To acquire some skills. To GET IT. And to have the courage to figure out what that meant to move through the world so that complicity is not a part of what I have to deal with in ...
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Monday, June 16th, 2008
Contentious was the word used.
I found it curious. No had called me that before. I had to look it up to ensure that I knew what it meant:
1.tending to argument or strife; quarrelsome: a contentious crew.
2.causing, involving, or characterized by argument or controversy: contentious issues.
3.disputatious, argumentative.
4. Given to contention; quarrelsome. ...
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Monday, June 16th, 2008
I heard the news today OH BOY
WHEW! It's going to be horrific and then OH. SO. FUCKING...
GOOD
I don't qualify for the wait list. Looks like I'll get fast-tracked to one of the spots in July. "TOO SOON" I said. Thinking about the Bride of Pride event in August and the ...
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Thursday, May 8th, 2008
Silence is golden.
Huh.
Sometimes it speaks VOLUMES.
Sometimes just fucking rude.
Ticking boxes with my dull pencil...
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Sunday, May 4th, 2008
The Dark Crystal.
Still holds up.
.................
The question is: Do you fight
For what you think is right
???
Do you sit?
??
Or do you fight.
???
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Tuesday, April 29th, 2008
Who knew? Well a few actually.
I'm stubborn. I have faith.
I suckle at the teat of benefit of the doubt.
I give what I ask for in return.
Look, I didn't put myself on this auction block and I'm tired of having my teef checked.
Note to self:
Availability DOES NOT EQUAL Capacity
Presence DOES NOT ...
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Sunday, April 27th, 2008
Exchange continues... Mama is getting paid.
Today:
Lesbianism is the heart ... submission is the soul
One can deny the heart .. but one can not deny the soul
So generous an offering to me
I really respect those who root around inside themselves
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Saturday, April 26th, 2008
There's this interesting thread in the anonymous section of a forum I belong to. It's about: Racism and Racialization.
I was gonna post there and decided that I needed to keep my unformed stuff over here where I can keep my thoughts separate from being seen as direct responses... LOL!
Hmmmm... I ...
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Saturday, April 26th, 2008
.
More reflection and further conversation about the D/s Dinner/salon I hosted on April 22.08 led me think a little more about this:
http://www.latimes.com/news/opinion/la-oe-frost11apr11,0,7418243.story
http://www.latimes.com/news/la-fg-mosley10apr10,1,7848100.story
http://lolitawolf.blogspot.com/2008/04/nazi-fantasies.html
http://www.slate.com/id/2188752/
And remember this:
http://www.iron-rose.com/vijohnson/docs/blic2.htm
All because today I had yet another communication commenting on how my personal choice of language about my personal stuff was disturbing. And once again ...
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Thursday, April 24th, 2008
My body has been failing me. Miserably.
And folks keep stepping up to the plate. Even through my complete and utter lack of expectation in humanity. Which is not about bitterness. It's about self reliance and about allowing people to operate within their capacities without guilt or obligation.
My body is failing ...
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Thursday, April 24th, 2008
GAG.
I gag and gag and gag.
Sometimes I find a way to don my good girl face. Generally I look for the silver lining.
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Wednesday, April 23rd, 2008
I was told I would end up paying. And I did. Big fucking surprise. There are always only a handful of folks willing to stick up their heads like whack-a-moles and eventually, no matter how skilled, they get thumped.
I wish I could withdraw the bounty I offered up - well ...
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Friday, April 18th, 2008
Lately its all about feeling intermediate in an advanced world.
If I was inclined to procreation, I would be attempting to replicate. If I was a flower I would be spraying my last blast before dying - a kind of desperate flailing before a final gasp.
I often use a phrase told ...
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Wednesday, April 16th, 2008
April Showers and Sweats!
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Tuesday, April 15th, 2008
**please feel free to cross-post and distribute appropriately**
Invite others to join us or distribute this link: http://tinyurl.com/3t3yw
This is the first in a series of serious conversations about D/s
On April 22, 2008 the second of an intended quarterly series of D/s Dinner/salons will take place. The intent is to come together ...
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Thursday, April 3rd, 2008
My mind is in a twist these days and I'm functioning on automatic. And event that is not getting the job done. My judgement is off but I'm trying to be gentle with myself. Saying things at work... saying things to the boi... sending emails I would love to recall... ...
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Monday, March 31st, 2008
My collegue asked me:
How do you feel?
 And lacking the strength not to unload I said:
Like shit.
I'm tired, and I'm scared, and I'm tired of feeling scared, and all of my emotions are TOO close to the surface. Especially, as I said to my supervisor today, when one has to ...
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Friday, March 28th, 2008
Meet my phone. It's out of focus, but **shrug** that's what you get when you steal images of out-dated technology off the web. It probably weighs a 1/4 of a pound and in at least one inch thick and 1.5 inches wide and about 6 inches long. I hold the ...
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Wednesday, March 26th, 2008
Love this. All you do is plunk in a name and hit the button.
Learn important things about yerself! Behold the insanity and lack of sense!
http://www.googlism.com/
Edited for sense but some good laughs...
kona is a beautiful young black female cat - how sweet!
kona is 75 pounds - maybe when I was 10!
kona ...
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Monday, March 10th, 2008
Currently I've got - as always - several on the go. In no particular order:
1. Black Wine - Candace Jane Dorsey
2. The Value in the Valley - Iyanla Vanzant
3. Bitch Goddess - edited by Pat Califia & Drew Campbell
4. Owned, Reflections of a Submissive - Toya
5. The Ethical Slut ...
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