Lady Kona, Nubian Imp & Tormentrix

Snapshot of the week ending : 2009-03-16

Let’s see… Themes for the week:

1. Dying
2. Race

Both located in my sense of family and the way people should be treated. Why is it that the individual at the centre point is so often ignored? While the absolute focus doesn’t need to be there, it is the touchstone. Conversations radiate out from that point. From the specific out to theory and concept and back to the individual again.

So, a dying woman gets to have agency regardless of what the people around her need. She gets to stand in line first. The reasons and justifications and blah blah blah that the living have are not her work.

So, a PoC or whomever is being defined as “the other” gets to have agency and should be considered when folks choose to converse generally or specifically. The reasons and justifications and blah blah blah that the those who are doing the “talking about” are not the work of the subject.

Both things made me think about my own mortality and purpose. And neither needs to be burdened with my personal sense of horror. It’s not additive. And it’s selfish in a way that ain’t all that helpful.

• WHEW! Uploaded info to my blog on the D/s Dinner/salons (http://is.gd/mv0i) It’s happening Saturday, March 28. Limited space. #
• Busy, busy, busy… wonder if I can fit my body into the photocopier? Somehow I gapped that is is International Women’s Day! I wanna hug one #
• Called someone at home. Got a busy signal. Didn’t identify it as one. Was confused. Do you get memory clashes, or ghosts visiting? #
• Yesterday I auditioned for a lead in a movie. Feels good to be back in the saddle after spending SO long recovering following my surgery. #
• I hate doing death watch. Hope my sisters get here before the end. Having stared at death last fall I have no fear – just patience #
• Once again I am confronted with how to be accountable for what one brings to a conversation, and how to not take things personally. So human #
• The 4th D/s Dinner/salon (http://is.gd/mv0i ) happens Saturday, March 28. Limited space RSVP required. Wanna come? View link for invite info #
• Of course on top of it all I have an audition tmrw – for the doctor of a dying person no less. Glad I’m too busy to feel. nxt wk #
• Being proactive. Researching details of sitting Shiva. Ironic that I Dined out for Life last night… #
• No one told me it would be so hard to be an adult. Makes me wonder what kind of elder I might turn out to be. Time is fleeting #
• Oh My Precious… So out of motivation. I feel like I’m squandering the goodness in my life. Unlike a video I can’t “do over”. #
• My breathing kept stopping. I didn’t fight. Now I lust to mark my passage. Stamp my presence. I know here I want there I have hope #
• Race and Incivility in the Leather/BDSM scene. Got caught up in convo on FetLife. Copied to http://NubianImp.com Tired. No. Really #
• No one told me it would be so hard to be an adult. Makes me wonder what kind of elder I might turn out to be. Time is fleeting #
• Oh My Precious… So out of motivation. I feel like I’m squandering the goodness in my life. Unlike a video I can’t “do over”. #
• My breathing kept stopping. I didn’t fight. Now I lust to mark my passage. Stamp my presence. I know here I want there I have hope #
• Breakfast with the family. Everyone’s arrived and she still clings. Not ready she says with tears and defiance. I want to be ready #
• Memories. Here at the end her memory is so clear. The past doesnt live inside my head or on paper or in photos. That should change #
• 12 workshops, 3 play parties and MORE! http://CanadianMayhem.com – Where past, present & future women come to play. Only 54 more days to go! #
• Race and Incivility in the Leather/BDSM scene. Got caught up in convo on FetLife. Copied to http://NubianImp.com Tired. No. Really #
• Dykes + Hotpot + Korean Lemon + Chocolate ganache b-day cake = POSH. A damned good way to forget about hospitals and working on Saturday. #
• Hanging out with Black folk! I miss seeing and being with folks who look like me and who GET what it is to walk around in skin like mine. #
• No one told me it would be so hard to be an adult. Makes me wonder what kind of elder I might turn out to be. Time is fleeting #
• Oh My Precious… So out of motivation. I feel like I’m squandering the goodness in my life. Unlike a video I can’t “do over”. #
• My breathing kept stopping. I didn’t fight. Now I lust to mark my passage. Stamp my presence. I know here I want there I have hope #
• Breakfast with the family. Everyone’s arrived and she still clings. Not ready she says with tears and defiance. I want to be ready #
• WHY do I bother to talk/argue/discuss race on the internet? Why is it SO much more painful when doing it with my people? http://jijr.com/HrM #
• Red thong or black panties? The situation is desperate. Risk my crack or risk the world? Much to do. Off to the hospital again. Thong it is. #
• I’ve not heard of RaceFail until today. So much to read… google it for yerself… There’s some really interesting discussion… thank gawd #
• Checking out the awesome TweetCloud at TweetStats! http://tinyurl.com/d5c282 #

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